A 3-Month Intensive Journey
Living Desire
Three months of daily practice, prayer, and connection with me, focused in pleasure.
Your desire is an alive, breathing thing, and your desire is what you live.
It all starts with knowing what you want. Desire is the engine of your life and your internal compass, directing what flows in and what flows out of your experience. And yet, so many of us have never been given the chance to want anything other than the small reality we have been fed. The world tries to tell us what we want instead of asking us.
This 3-month intensive 1:1 journey is designed to help you stop being pulled along by the current, and choose what river you want to flow down.
Together, we will listen to the whispers of your desire, unbinding the shackles of “shoulds” and shame that keep you from your own power.
This journey asks you to be in daily devotion to your desire through prayer and practice.
- You will say Yes to things you want
- You will say No to things you don’t want
- You will pray to the Ancestors of Pleasure every day
- You will set aside time every day to do something pleasurable
This is a simple practice, that is meant to be simple. All of this is already available for free on this website. You can find the prayers here, you can make time for yourself every day, and you can honor your yes and your no.
What makes the next 3 months special is our communication with each other between sessions, and my devoted attention.
This is not 3 monthly sessions with vast oceans of time and space between them. We will be integrating together all along the way through text and voice notes. I am in your pocket with you for you to share all of your celebrations, dump your frustrations, and to offer you invitations towards new directions.
Marissa did such a beautiful job infusing fun and joy when appropriate and reverence and deep listening presence when appropriate. I felt met and supported in my desires in a beautiful and wonderful way.
— G.G., Somatic Sex Education Client, 2023
Orienting. Deepening. Living.
Orienting To Your Desire
How does desire move in your body? How do you say what you don’t want? How do you understand somatics?
You’ll begin with an intake form. You’ll be in relationship with the prayers. You’ll leave with a practice to begin alongside them.
Deepening
Check-in after a month of practice. Where are you? How is it going? What do you need to adjust or lean into moving forward?
This session is shaped by our daily communication in the first month.
Sending You Off
We will close our container, and take a sweet ritual action to part ways.
You have everything you need to continue your own journey and practice. To Live Your Desire.
The daily practice is where the real shifts happen.
Between sessions, voice-note and text support is available Monday–Thursday via Telegram for reflection and integration. I typically respond once per business day. This is not real-time support, but a space for ongoing attunement.
The monthly 1 hour sessions are anchors for the work that takes place over this 3-month period. Your daily practice will sift through hesitations, shames, joys, patterns, and emotions. One day you’ll be scared, another you’ll be incredibly turned on — all of this is a part of the journey. This consistent contact allows for a continuous re-orientation, like a river finding its way through the valley.
When you exit this journey, you’ll still be living your life. I will encourage you to develop a relationship with a support system that you can stay in communication with as you move forward. This is a thing we do in community.
We do not walk this path alone. We are surrounded by thousands of years of the stories of the dead.
Building a ship
of bones.
The stories of the dead — including the shames and fears of ancestors who were told their desires were unacceptable — when out of place, become intrusive thoughts that block our flow. In this journey we engage in ancestral healing to rewrite these stories. Through a practice of daily recitation of a prayer to the Ancestors of Pleasure, we will work to:
- Unbind ancestral shame — transform the stories of the dead from burdens into a ship built of the bones of those who came before us, outfitted to help you sail towards your truest desires
- Honor The Ancestors of Pleasure — recognize that you are the answer to the prayers of ancestors who hoped and dreamt for a bigger, better world
- Stepping into your role — align yourself with the ancestors who nourished themselves on beauty and knew the wonder of being alive
Calling the Ancestors of Pleasure back to the world prays for a world where bodies know joy, where children are free, and where you are free.
I met spirits I did not know and confronted blocks around the experience of pleasure I hadn’t considered. I left with an understanding that my life as I live it is not random or out of line but a culmination of the deepest unattainable desires of many who came before me, and they watch me with pride, joy, and amazement. I breathe more luscious breaths, feeling for pleasure for its own sake and a sign of rightness rather than utility.
— Ancestral Erotic Healing Client, 2024
To know what you truly want, you must ask the soma — your living body.
Asking the living body.
Your body is the unadulterated expression of your spirit; it holds your desires and your story. Over twelve weeks, we will develop a pleasure practice that uses the sensations of your body as a guide.
- Tuning into somatic guidance — learning to recognize the urge to move toward what you want and away from what you do not want
- Resourcing through pleasure — carving out space in your day to set everything else aside save for the sensuous experience of being alive in a body that feels fucking good
- Refusing to settle — gaining the clarity to say, “I know what I want, and it is not that,” which is how we begin to dismantle that which would pull you back into the wrong current
This is not the moment to turn your pleasure down.
This is the moment to turn your pleasure up.
Your desire is what drives you to participate in the creative web of the world. By the end of these three months, you will not just have a practice — you will have a deepened connection to the bone level yearning for freedom that exists inside you.
You will learn how to hold both joy, pleasure, and liberation in your heart simultaneously. It’s a practice that makes a more beautiful world come alive in everything all around us. When you live your life in this way, in response to your desire, and choose to lean into moments of joy and pleasure — you create that world.
Singing your own joyful world into being.
Relationships were really difficult, because I didn’t understand the possibility of love in abundance. I think maybe I was only theoretically aware of the information stored in the body, passed between bodies. I hadn’t had experience of it. Marissa’s work awakened me to wisdom that is being held in my body by the ancestors and, like turning the spigot on a well that has existed since deep time, helped me remember how to access it. – Ancestral Erotic Healing Client
— Ancestral Erotic Healing Client, 2025
Read this carefully.
This is for you if —
- You want to commit to a daily somatic practice of inviting pleasure into your life
- You enjoy getting into the depths behind the emotions and sensations you’re feeling to facilitate authentic connection with yourself
- You have a solid support system around you
- You feel comfortable texting and/or sharing voice notes between sessions
- You have the ability to pay $500 USD / month
- You identify as a femme. If you’re thinking “Am I included in this?” You probably are, please read “Working With Women” for further understanding. Thems, femmes, butches, pillow princesses, stone tops, queens and things to the front.
This is not for you if —
- You want a quick silver bullet fix
- You cannot regulate yourself through triggering moments
- You cannot say “No” or “Stop” or “Slow Down”
- You don’t feel comfortable staying in touch with text or voice notes between sessions
- You cannot keep up with a $500 USD / month payment — the prayers are yours for free, and I have written so much on this practice on my Substack. Please feel free to start your practice there.
- You identify as a cis man. This particular round I’m really excited to focus my work with femmes and thems.
$500 / month
3-month container · Total investment: $1,500
Includes:
– 3, 1 hour 1:1 sessions in total
– Voice & text support via Telegram (Monday–Thursday) in between sessions: so you can check in, ask questions, or share what’s coming up
Enrollment ends May 8th.
First sessions booked May 11-14th.
When you confirm your payment, you agree to pay $1,500 total over 3 months in $500 payments. Due to the limited spots, no refunds will be issued. Please commit consciously.
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